I know I promised to create my new account this week, and everyone is awaiting this new account, but...
DO NOT PANIC, because I'll be creating it tomorrow (AKA later today; Friday)~!
That's right, I just remembered, and thankfully I remembered today rather than two weeks from now! I'll try for tomorrow, and if not, then sometime over the weekend. School's out, I just graduated on Wednesday evening, so it'll be much easier for me to find time to do this, so all of you (my watchers) won't have to wait much longer! The time is soon arriving! There is much more exciting material to be uploaded to my new account, including hundreds of photographs, a few poetic pieces, artisan crafts in the near future, and possibly even a beginning to a novel! I will have my own awesome new icon, and hopefully get a subscription so I can decorate my journal, so it won't be incredibly drab and as arid as it is now! >_>"
As well as not having homework to finish and tests to study for, being grounded (but with internet contracted into my punishment) for two weeks, until Wednesday, June 17th, will keep me even more motivated to make this new account and update more often, which is one good factor about being grounded!
As far as life outside of the web goes, I've had my ups and downs the past week or so. My best guy friend who likes me back told me he wasn't going to the 8th grade dance, but then he showed up, so I was uber excited! I told all my friends and they were girly-screaming out of enthusiasm for me! My friends and I went to the back of the dance floor, where I saw him, and I was so nervous I couldn't even go up to him to say hi, so my friends were shoving me towards him until I finally reached where he was sitting and greeted him. He got up and said it was good to see me, and that he was looking for me, and we hugged each other before, unfortunately, walking off in separate directions. Throughout the entire rest of the time, I felt ignored by him and rejected. I saw a few girls go up to him and drag him up to force him to dance, and grind on him, which saddened me, and jealousy took over. Later on, my friend came with me to ask him if he wanted to join my friends and I, and he rejected, so I gave up. I began to tear up afterwards, and my friend took me out into the hallway to get away from the loud noise and crowd of people. We went back in so I could drink my water, and my friends tried cheering me up until it ended, and I actually smiled and laughed as they did so, and was in a good mood until I was getting a ride home. When I talked to my guy friend later during the weekend, he had told me he would have joined my friends and I if he had heard us (WOW that really sucks that he didn't hear...), and he wanted me to sit by him so we could talk (sucks I didn't know that...), so everything was fine then.
Before I go into a novella-style journal, I'm going to end here and summarize the rest of my time since last update, and my future plans...basically, I asked out my friend, he rejected because he wants to get to know me more (was saying "idk" all the time when I brought it up before he rejected, because of my theories that he didn't wanna hurt me by saying no, didn't wanna hurt the friendship, and really just didn't know), and after much thought that him and I probably wouldn't happen, asked out my other friend only to get rejected by him, too. At least I still have that tiny bit of hope that maybe my first friend I asked out and I will work once we get to know each other a lot more, and they didn't turn me down rudely. My other friend felt really guilty about rejecting me, even told me not to think of it as a rejection, but that he just doesn't like me the way I like him, and to think of him as a brother (I wouldn't date a brother, so thinking of him as one should definitely help my lovesickness).
My future plan is to use my journal not only as a tool to update my watchers, but a reviewing system, for practice, and for useful recommendations or conversation starters. I already added my first review prior to this update, and maybe you guys can also use that as judgement for whether or not it is a good idea, and give me some constructive criticism if you would like to see more in the future. And if you would like to see more, please also let me know about things I could write reviews on. The idea to write reviews came to mind because I had been reading reviews earlier that gave me the desire to write my own, and had ideas for a review if I were to write one on the topic. It is also for practice for writing in general, and because I've been considering writing for the school newspaper when I'm in HS.
Another request: I have a question for anyone to answer...
Question: Do you guys think it would help much if I played hard to get slightly with my guy friend? It's been a while since he was the one to IM first, and I want him to start a conversation, so I'm thinking if I try ignoring him until he greets me instead of the other way around, it might assist me. What do you guys think?
As usual, I apologize if I got slightly off topic, and for stretching out the update. I know updates aren't supposed to be this long, wait...I have a good idea! Follow me on twitter! My ID is xxBiZarre4xx. But please don't let that stop you from reading, or at least just skimming, through my journals, that is, if you give a damn! xD
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